Fighting Anxiety and Depression Together
My teenage daughter, Rylee, struggles with anxiety and depression. As her mother, I navigate this overwhelming condition with her and it’s been an adventure, to say the least.
Not knowing if she’ll come home and go straight to her room today, or if she might take a few minutes to tell me about her day. Trying to see if the smile on her face is corroborated by happiness in her eyes, or if it’s just for show.
Teenage depression is very common and very serious, and I hope that one day Rylee will be able to share her story to inspire others.
As a mom, watching your child struggle is one of the hardest things imaginable. To see this pain they feel and not be able to take it away, it makes you question if you’re the right person for this job.
Maybe God should have given her someone stronger as a mother, someone who always knows the right things to do and say. But he didn’t. He gave her me, and although there are times I feel useless, I can only hope that one day she will look back and see that I did my best.
I wrote this poem for Rylee last year on her 15th birthday. When she read it, she had tears in her eyes and yelled, “Mom! Why are you making me feel things?” It’s good to see her sense of humor come out and to hear her admit I made her FEEL something.
A Poem for Rylee
When you were just a baby
I would rock you when you cried
And when you were a toddler
You would cuddle by my side
When you started school
I’d laugh at the stories you would tell
And I would bandage up your knees
Every single time you fell
When your tween years came along
I would wipe away your tears
I would hold you as you cried
And told me all your fears
Now that you’re in high school
You don’t need me quite so much
But I need you more than ever
Or I would feel so out of touch
You were my tiny baby once
Now you’re quite the lady
But not matter how much you grow
You’ll always be my baby
If you know someone suffering from anxiety and/or depression, please encourage them to seek help. Please help them understand that there is hope, and to not give up.
If you or someone you know is having suicidal thoughts, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.
I know this post has a different tone from the rest of my blog, but I felt the need to share this. If you have a story to tell, please feel free to leave a comment below or send me an email.
Have a blessed day!